Bloody sharp lump is alarming for sure, but im going out anyway.. surgeon isn’t advising staying in so I won’t then.

Something cultural tonight..

Right then… they don’t want to admit me today but I’m scheduled for drastic surgery on the 17th.

Let the good times roll til then, then…

Waiting for a phone call to see whether I go into hospital for a couple of months today, or kinda carry on, all lumpy and twisted ( blimey ).

If i don’t go into hospital as an emergency admission, I’m going to the theatre tonight ( as planned ).

Well… you gotta keep on keeping on, right?

As usual then, as things get better, something happens that pushes my head under water again.

The lump in my lower back that was just a lump is now becoming a pointed lump all of a sudden ( like a screw is about to burst out of my skin ).

I think that it’s probably a screw that’s about to burst out of my skin then?

Im in bed and think that’s probably the best thing I can do until I’m told otherwise. If it all breaks internally and comes tumbling down then there are major blood vessels in the vicinity that get caught in the crossfire and I die. Although I’m ok with that, I’m definitely up for giving not dying an equal chance now, so I’m being cautious.

I’ve left messages with 2 surgeons ( definitely NOT going to A and E for something this specialist )  and I will hear from them tomorrow I think, and then decide what to do. Personally I think someone should come here and assess me, before I try to get help back into my chair, as every transfer is potentially disastrous I think.

Mentally it’s not taken me down with it, I have to say, or not just yet, as I am more than able to process the situation ever so logically these days.

Other than that, lovely to see Glenn today, Leigh and Bev on Friday, Cherie today, Miles and Charlie, Chris H  and lots of Wendy ( lovely from every angle ).

So it’s watch this space then. If I’m right then I’ll be in hospital this week, and will be staying there, messing up next weekend’s many plans.. and any I had for a couple of months.

But hey.

I’m not having the best day, I have to say.

I tried to put up a little shelf ( not easy when you can’t change position much ) and made a total bollocks of it.

I then went out.  As I approached a zebra crossing on my Triride at full speed, a skinny blond chap sort of minced onto the crossing. If I’d braked I’d have crashed, so I didn’t and he had to wait about another 2 seconds to cross the road.

As i went by, he shouted out ‘ TWAT’.

Having had a bad start to the day, I found myself turning my Tri around and going back to ask him if he’d been talking to me, and saying they braking hard and falling out isn’t a great option for me.

Not giving any ground, he said something high pitched and  ‘unsympathetic ‘ back to me.

I then found myself saying ‘ You be nice to disabled people, ok, like I am to Queers..’

I’m not in the slightest bit homophobic, but sometimes you just come out with stuff?

Or is it just me?

So it seems that Henry Hendron is at least pausing in his trans ocean attempt, after AGAIN being rescued by the Coast Guard (!) on Day 2… after having been rescued on Day 1 already… I wonder if you get arrested on Rescue no 3 ? You should be.

Anyway, Henry ( i think a bit pissed ) last night ( while I was at a gig in Kings Cross with Chris H and Wendy – Grandmaster Flash 6/10 ) sent me about 30 messages, having realised that I was concerned about him, and probably  having received a lot of emails after my blog post…

It seems that he has revised his plan ( or now actually has a little one ), that being to do some online how to sail reading….well it’s woefully inadequate but it’s better than nothing.

Now for the good bit … he then suggested ( about 20 times, increasingly persistently, that I join him on the boat and crew for him. Apparently my wheelchair isn’t an issue on a small rocky boat, on the high seas, and any obstacles are only ‘ in my mind ‘. He even called me a coward for my declining his offer.

I spelt it out to him that he’d have to help me wash and dress and carry me up and down the little stairs, as that stuff hadn’t ( it seems ) occurred to him. Then he shut up, at least.

So we have a little hope ref Henry – he’s still got no chance of surviving a major storm in the Atlantic, but he may now get offshore, without being rescued, for a few days, though has to navigate one of the world’s busiest shipping lanes ( English Channel ) after that.

Hmmmm… you have to love him!

Well she definitely has still got it, and it’s a serious show that The Britney Corporation put on. She’s dressed like a hooker ( which is great ) and she’s got a lovely bum.

Its all way too over choreographed and she is a bit lost in the crowd on the stage.

I think she ought to forget about the running around the stage and the frenzied dance routines. She’s no Beyoncé and she doesn’t need to be. When she started it was all about suggestion rather than nudity.

I say that sometimes less is a lot more – so less stage show and more just Britney? But hey, what do I know, she pays a lot of money to a lot of people to keep that show going.

Maybe / definitely she’s not in control of her own image, just keeps paying people with their own self interest at heart.

Also, don’t talk Britney… you’re like David Beckham on helium.

Britney… 6/10 ( but I’m sure a lovely lady somewhere in there, Away from it all )