Yearly Archives: 2013

Message from Dani x

Alwyn, myself and the girls arrived at the hospital this morning to find Russ being tended to by two rather stunning physiotherapists (typical Russ!) so we had to leave for a while for them to finish. Alwyn put in a bid for them “to give him whatever Russ was having” which humoured Russ (and the physios!).

Anyway, we spent all morning with Russ and he was clearly pleased to have us around his bedside. Its still nigh impossible to understand what he is mouthing so we just try to persuade him not to even try saying anything (other than simple “pointing” antics and “yes” and “no”) as he gets frustrated and we feel awful for not being able to understand him. As we keep reassuring him, the tracheotomy will be removed sometime in the next week or so and he will then be able to speak to his heart’s content (and, no doubt verbalise what morons we’ve all been in not even having been able to understand his most simplistic of “mouthings”).

As he seems to have perfected the art of drinking water despite the tracheotomy, we asked the medical staff if he could have some ice-cream and they agreed. One “Solero” later, he was a very happy chappy. It sure must make a change from the protein goo that has been pumped into him via a nasal tube for the last 4 weeks.

For the last few days, the doctors have been taking Russ off the ventilator for a short period twice per day. The first day it was for 2 periods of 30 mins, yesterday for 2 periods of an hour and today for 2 periods of 2 hours (preceded each time with a blood transfusion to maximise the oxygen in his blood). The idea of this is to keep increasing the periods until such time as they are satisfied he can come off the ventilator altogether. At that point, the tracheotomy can be removed and he will be able to talk, eat and drink as normal which will be a huge milestone.

Whilst there had been some early concerns that Russ’s cardiac arrest when in surgery on arrival at hospital (it took them about 20 mins or so to get the heart beating again) might have resulted in lack of oxygen to the brain and some form of brain damage, these concerns have melted away. Whilst he can’t speak at the moment, he is clearly very alert (when awake) and seems to know what we are talking about whatever the subject we choose. He has also confirmed that he understands what the french medics are talking about when they are discussing treatments etc in his room (his french was always pretty good). So, we’re all confident that he is still “Russ”, down to his humour which has also been very evident during the last few days.

He understands all the injuries he has incurred as his little bro, Stuart, and I have been through them all with him. Most importantly, he knows he’s incurred a spinal chord injury and this is why he can’t feel his legs. I’ve explained (small mercies) that it is at T11 which is low down, below the naval, and that this, importantly, means he has use of all his core muscles which will count for a lot going forward, not just in terms of day to day living but, also, in terms of all the new sports Russ will undoubtedly turn his hand to in the future.

Of course, the spinal injury is something we will be getting second opinions on when Russ is fit to be repatriated to the UK but we all know that there is no surety of any “easy fix”.What absolutely amazed me about Russ’s response to me telling him of the details of the spinal injury was just how admirably sanguine he was about it. Such stunning bravery.

Anyway, as I told him, lucky that he had already completed pretty much every sporting challenge there exists on earth before he had the accident. Also, he already knows that there are an awful lot of people who are lining up to get him involved in new sporting challenges as soon as he has regained his health and been fully rehabilitated, so still everything to play for, sporting wise. In fact, James Cracknell has already emailed Russ to say that he is busily looking at stuff they can do together once Russ is ready. James and Bev are coming out to see Russ next week so no doubt plans will be hatched, time-tables prepared and wheels put in motion by the end of that visit :-s

So, some light at the end of the tunnel for us all. When I think of my arrival in Toulon four weeks ago, I was told that not only had Russ nearly died in theatre but that he might yet still not make it due to the severity of his many injuries. It was also made amply clear to us that the potential cardiac-related issues with the brain might mean that, even if he did survive, he might never wake up or that, if he did, he might be brain damaged. We’ve come a long way since then and it is clear that the doctors here are amazed and impressed.

I know there is still a long road ahead but I have never been more proud of Russ and the sheer “fight” in the man. As everyone knows, I love him endlessly. And what has been so lovely to know is that there are literally hundreds of people (both family and friends) who do too.

Thank you to everyone for all their amazing messages of love and support throughout this ordeal. It has been of such huge comfort and I know that it means that Russ, I and our beautiful daughters can all feel very positive about the future.

Love Danielle xxxx

Tongue Tied

Hello everyone,

Today Russ has continued with his slowly but surely recovery.  Ribs take 4-6 weeks to recover and we are now very nearly at the 4 week stage so his chest should be healing well.  His lungs which were torn and ripped by his broken ribs are also healing but still need to have the help of a ventilator to ensure his oxygen and hemoglobin levels are high.  As his lungs heal and the swelling reduces the chances of any further cardiac episodes also subside. 
Russ is getting quite frustrated as the tracheotomy is still fitted which means he cannot talk.  He does mouth his words but is finding it very exasperating that he cannot be understood.  As difficult as this is for him (and those trying to understand) it is also probably quite a positive thing as it shows he is trying very hard to be back in the real world again and has the energy to show his frustrations.  
Russ’s eldest bro, Alwyn has flown in from the US (via LHR) tonight and will stay with Russ and Dani for a week.  I know Russ will be so thrilled to see Alwyn as he was unconscious during Alwyn’s last visit. The Dawkins boys, Stuart, Russ and Alwyn are very close.
Not sure where my mum’s update is tonight (Maybe she has had one too many verre du vin  and is having a night off!)…but for now it’s a good night from me and I am sure wherever she is it’s also a good night from her too! 🙂
Margo x 
My Christmas cracker hat made by Russ…hence Margo!:

Mum’s news came in eventually!

 Good evening everyone
Today was good again. Russ was very alert this morning and enjoyed seeing his beautiful daughters and was even more alert and " with it" this evening. Alwyn arrived from America tonight and will see him tomorrow. Russ has remembered that Alwyn is coming so the short term memory is looking good.
Dani has asked me to tell you all about Russ' fixation with the cabinet at the end of his bed. It is quite entertaining. He stares at it and motions to Dani to move it, which she does. When we return in the afternoon, the nurses have moved it back and we go through the whole procedure again. Dani was at pains to show him what is in the drawer but he is obviously "hung up" about it!
So, Russ looks stronger each day and we just can't wait until he can speak as he will feel much less frustrated, understandably.
The girls have been so wonderful with Russ and we shall miss Lily being here. She is going on a sailing trip around Sardinia. Fortunately, Amber is staying and she is being her usual amusing self with Russ, quite bossy actually.
Anyway, that's all the news.
Love to you all
Jenni x

Much of the Same.

Below is the latest from Maman Jenni.  I spoke to ‘France’ today and Russ’s tracheotomy is still preventing him from talking despite the deflation of the balloon contraption.  Hopefully he will have the trachy for only a few more day and then he will just be reliant on an oxygen mask.  Dani has taken an A3 card and some post it notes spelling the alphabet back out to France with her so Russ can spell out what he wants to say but I gather that Russ is finding it easier relying on others lip reading skills!  Apparently Russ’s eyes do not leave his girls when they are visiting and his face lights up when they are there.
Russ’s wonderful parents left a couple of days ago.  They were on holiday in Canada when the accident happened and flew back to London as soon as they could get on a flight.  When they reached London they couldn’t get a flight to Marseille for a day or so, so they drove home to Wales, had a shower and a sandwich and an hour later they started the very long car journey (15 hours) from Cardiff to Toulon by car! (Having already been up for 48 hours!) They have been in France ever since and have attended every visiting time – complete Stalwarts.  They have returned briefly to Wales knowing that Russ is now out of the woods for the first time in 3 1/2 weeks.

xxx

Dear All
Russ has had a very quiet day so not a lot to report. Apparently, he had a lively night and early morning. He looked very relaxed and comfortable tho'. As he was so sleepy, Dan suggested that we take the girls to a beach that was accessed by a little ferry. It was great and we all swam and the girls loved it. Dani gave Russ a manicure tonight as his has were very chapped and now they look very smart. So that's all really.
Love to you all as usual.
Jenni x

Before and Afters

Dani has asked me to post these photos of Russ which were taken 9 days after the accident.

These photos are desperately unpleasant and were taken at a very critical time.  Today they are being used to promote the utter strength of character and determination that has been required to defy medical opinion and display a unique human spirit and fight for survival.

 They are very shocking as this was when Russ was in a coma and was attached to every contraption under the sun, including a dialysis machine, lung train, blood transfusion, ventilator, etc!  During this time every tube was keeping him alive. He was like this for over two weeks.  Poor Russ was in a very, very bad way….but….


The last photo of Russ with his beautiful girls at his side is how he looks today…this evening and I think you will all agree that there has been a remarkable transformation of super human strengths yet again! (He even looks a little bit like Clark Kent!).  This has only been 14 days after the other photos…..well done Russ, if you can keep up this pace you will be home in London in just  a few weeks! xxx

Tuesday 9th July

Hello Everyone.  I am so sorry that I have not updated the blog for 48 hours….I have been in deepest East Sussex camping without internet….yes Russ, ‘Margo’ has been camping….first time since I was 6- 36 years ago!  I gather Russ missed a weekend of camping last weekend as he was due to be going to Glastonbury with Roy.

All the news coming in is showing Russ is still little by little recovering.  News from mum in chronolgocial order starting with Monday:

Dear everyone
So sorry to be so late in sending this e mail but we left the hospital late and went straight to a restaurant for supper. Of course as you all realise, both Amber and Lily came here with Danielle last night. It was the first time Lily had seen Russ since his accident. When we arrived at the hospital it was very frustrating, particularly for Lily as they weren't able to see Russ for over an hour. He was, in fact, having physiotherapy. When Danielle and Lily and Amber went to see Russ, he was extremely sleepy, so we felt that the girls were a bit upset.
However, fortunately, this afternoon, it really was a different matter. Russ was very much awake and quite obviously delighted to see " his girls" . He watched them all the time with a lovely smile on his face. Lily and Amber were quite superb and really didn't want to leave his side. Very beautiful to observe.
So once again we are pleasantly optimistic as every day is a little step towards recovery.
Must have a sleep now.
Dear love as always
Jenni x

Today:


Dear everyone
Another good day. Russ was very alert this morning and was propped up a bit more in bed,almost in a sitting position. He is very aware of noises and people coming into the room and curious as to what is in such and such (like a drawer).
The nurses also seem pleased with him, which is very reassuring. He continues to give everyone lovely smiles which is always so comforting.
So each day there seems to be a noticeable improvement.
Love to you all
Jenni x


Oh God, forgot to mention Murray won Wimbledon yesterday! Amazeballs!
x

The Great Escape!

Good morning!  It’s another stunning day here in the UK and we are all getting prepared for the Wimbledon final. Today Dani will be returning to France with Lily and Amber in tow.  It will be a very special reunion today as Lilstar hasn’t seen Russ since his accident.  Now Russ will have all his girls with him to smooth out his brow.

Very important message Russ for you from Jayne Creamer:

Hi Russ, just making sure you know that Chris Froome won Stage 8 – from Castres to Aix trois Domaines – an amazing stage in the Tour de France yesterday (or overnight for those of us viewing from Australia!) – that means of course another Brit in yellow 🙂 with every chance of holding on to it for some time if not all the way. I can’t believe it was almost  year ago that I was sending you texts about the cycling at the Olympics – when it was going through Richmond Park 🙂
I also can’t believe we are getting regular updates on the news about Will & Kate’s baby! What odds are you giving that the child will be a ginger?
It is terrific to read this blog about you and to hear of your continuing improvements – and of your persistent cheekiness – it must be really frustrating not being able to talk and to be taking the mickey about of others without words – still, you’ll be giving it your best we know. It sounds like you’re doing a really good job pulling through, so just keep on keeping on.

We think about you all the time big fella, lots of love, Ads & Jayne xxxx (those kisses are from Ad I’m sending a big hug)

…and now for the news from France:

Dear All
Just a line or two to say that Russ remained very alert all day. He waited until his Mum left the room and confided in Stuart that he wanted to get out of the hospital. Stuart said he is definitely planning an escape. Stuart had to explain that it wasn't a good idea and that he had to concentrate on getting better first!! He had another go at writing and this time was making bigger letters but because he couldn't properly see the paper he was writing on, it was difficult. He was very, very pleased to see Pia and Cliff. He really made great strides yesterday.
He may be tired this morning or he may surprise us. I'll let you all know later today.
With love
Jenni x

…and a little bit more later today:

Hello everyone
Russ has had a good morning. He is more tired than yesterday but very calm and peaceful and interested in any news we have for him. At 6.00 this evening he is having a component, like a balloon, deflated from the tracheotomy which will allow Russ to talk. We have been told his voice will sound different but so good for Russ to be able to communicate. He seems very happy with this news.
We are really looking forward to seeing Dani and the girls tonight and Russ just beamed when I told him they would be coming to see him in the morning.
So things are progressing!
Dear love to you all
X

…and a tiny weeny bit more:

Dear all
Just back from the hospital. Russ is very tired today and having a restful early evening. The nurse deflated the balloon as mentioned earlier today and then after half an hour they
re- inflated it. I understand they will continue to do this.
Dani and the girls returns very soon which will be great.
Russ gave us a few smiles when we talked to him which was heartwarming.
Love to you all
Jenni x




Current Affairs

As Russ is starting to become a little more compis mentis over the next few days/weeks I thought it might be a good idea to start to record some other important events that have taken place in the last few days and the coming weeks.  Russ has basically been out of touch with the outside world now for over 3 weeks so hopefully he may find this useful to piece things together!  (Russ – I know you will laugh at this as I am the least current affairs orientated person in the family!…Perhaps I should just stick to the gossip or at worst the latest music?) 😀

Today has been a fantastically sunny day here in the UK and the whole country is working itself into a frenzy about tomorrow’s Wimbledon final with Murray v Djokovic.  Also very importantly in rugby Lions won the series in the final against Australia today.  Fingers crossed it will be a great day for British sport! 

Now for the followers;

News from my mum:

Dear all
Am writing this in the afternoon as Russ has been very alert this morning. The nurse told us that he had a good night and was better. He was trying to write things down for us but it was very difficult because of the position he is in. Stuart has been brilliant and so sensitive to Russ. We have devised a series of topics and also questions that Russ is asking. So far it has been successful. We understood he is missing Amber, wanting a drink and that his mouth and lips felt dry. This communication is good for Russ and much less frustrating.
He looks great and smiles quite a lot too.
All of us here feel very happy and privileged to be in his company. He is proving to be a real tough fighter.
More tomorrow
With love
Jenni x

Wonderful new, keep it going Russ! x

Until tomorrow…. xxxx

Welsh Dragon 5th July

Some really good news that came in late last night:

Dear all
It's very late but here we go! What a great afternoon we have had. Russ has been very, very alert. Emma and Debbie spent some time with him and he was trying to say something and eventually he flapped his arms and they realised he was asking when they were flying home. He has been focusing on everyone and obviously been intently listening to conversations with nurses etc. He has been squeezing hands very hard, winking at Debbie when she spoke French. He is also, quite obviously, going to be a complete nightmare for the nursing staff as he is busy removing the clip on his thumb and the pads on his chest and looking bloody cheeky about it too!
In all he is being a complete monkey today!!
Tonight, his brother Stuart arrived and his wife Mandy. Also his Auntie Wendy came. They all arrived quite late so he is in for a real invasion tomorrow. He may be sleepy in the morning as he is apt to be. But who knows! Today has been quite fabulous.
Well done Russ darling, you are a star!
Dearest love as always
Jenni xxxx

The Welsh contingency is now in Toulon roaring Russell on.  Aunty Wendy, Stuart and Mandy, together with Bob and Di have been keeping Russ company today.

Dear All
It has been a busy day with Russ very alert this afternoon. He was sleepy this morning and tired which perhaps we expected as he had such an eventful day yesterday. This afternoon he had the TV on and seemed to watch a little tennis. Bob and Stuart told him the team for the lions tomorrow and he seemed very interested. So another positive day.
More news tomorrow.
Dear Love to you al
Jenni x

Russy Wussy

Dani has returned to London with Amber today to collect Lily,  She will be in London for 3 nights and then Amber, Dani and Lilster will return to Toulon.  Meanwhile Bob and Di, Russ's brother Stuart, my mum and Dan and Russ's friends Emma and Debbie remain.


Hi to you all
Not a great deal to report. Russ is having a quiet day. He had another x'ray this morning which I guess was for his chest. I haven't actually seen him but I believe he has opened his eyes a little and lifted an arm.
Apparently, two days ago when Dani told Russ that Emma and Debbie were coming he mouthed 'when'!
Dani has gone back to London with Amber. It will be so good for her to have a break. She continues to be just so courageous and is still thinking how she can make others' lives comfortable. I am in awe. She will be able to see Lily at last and bring her to Toulon on Sunday.
It is still late afternoon here and I shall return to the hospital shortly. I'll write again late this evening if there is any noticeable change. If you don't hear again today,things will be remaining calm and stable.
With love as always
Jenni x

and then a little later....

PS
Have just had a text from Bob at the hospital saying " Most animated Russ has been. Smiled, squeezed both our hands, massive improvement , definitely going places".
Thought you'd all love to receive this!
Xxxxx

Sleepy…

Hi all, so sorry for the late update….. Maman Jenni has been a little delayed with her email!

Good evening
Russ has had a sleepy day today. The nurse told us that because he had a chest infection he was very tired, so a quieter day today, quieter than yesterday. He woke up a couple of times. Chrissie left today and Emma and Debbie arrived and he opened his eyes when they were with him.
So not more to tell. Will write again tomorrow.
Love to you all.
Jenni x