Hello Russ, “sorry to read you’re having a particularly tough time right now” doesn’t quite cut it and yet I know you write rhetorically not expecting answers, simply expressing the (unimaginable) frustration and unanswerable agony that for you life currently is. Not going to write anything trite, just agreeing with you that your battle all along was/is mainly going to be psychological and you are putting yourself in the very best place to help yourself – and those you love. Hopefully soon you will start to see and value yourself the way others do which truly is as a very smart, funny as Fuck, articulate, talented, inspirational, loving man with so much to give. I am so looking forward to seeing you. X x x