Monthly Archives: September 2013

First I’d like to say a BIG happy birthday to my great mate, Larry today,; I’m missing out on his big night out!

Second just as big a HAPPY BDAY to Stu, my bother, for tomorrow.  
I fully expect a picture of Stu in his bday gift to appear on this blog tomorrow…. Stu don’t let the readers down!
On a positive note I’ve cheered up no end, thanks to so many messages and visitors reassuring me that I will , to them, never be a burden of any kind. 
Forgive me for my blip there, I’m generally upbeat (considering). 
I asked Dani the other day to bring on this old dumbbell we have at home. It weighs 12kg, a weight I could literally throw around before. She said she was sure I’d struggle with that, and I assured her that I wouldn’t, feeling a little put out!
Today, I went to the lower gym here in the hospital.  He handed me, to my horror, a 2kg dumbbell and asked me lift it, with a straight arm, in front of me. 
As I soon learnt that, with my right arm, I was unable to do this more than once, I realised that the 12kg target is a fair way off……
I did later take stock and recalled that 5 weeks ago I couldn’t hold my phone in my right hand, so really I’ve come a long way since then. 
As a ‘recoverer’ who’d rather look forward than back, I easily forget how bad I was after waking from the coma, unable to pick up a cup of tea or use a spoon. 
My right shoulder continues to hinder me and my ribs are temperamental but all told progress is solid. 
I can transfer from a solid surface to a wheelchair now using arms and weight shift, which is quite a big step from TOTALLY failing at it a month ago. 
I’m pleased to say that my physios continue to be young and cute and at any one time I’m encouraged to either rest the back of my head in a cleavage or throw myself headlong towards one. 
It makes the sessions a lot less painful for me….tho I keep smirking during the exercises..
Russ

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God I miss being at home.  

The thought of not being there for many more months is at the moment almost unbearable. 
Whilst the days are tolerable, the time between my friends leaving and me sleeping is my opportunity to go either way with my vision of the near and longer future. 
I wish for a turning back of the clock, never having organised that bike trip. Dani today said that for some reason she had a vision of something going wrong. 
She and my girls have been absolutely rock solid in their support for me since that fateful day, despite the heavy impact on their lives. 
I so hope they’re happy still with me as a burden. For how long can they maintain their regular visits to see me before they perhaps, understandably, want to do other things?
These are dark thoughts I know but this diary is about how life is now, not just an attempt to spout optimism on a daily basis. 
I don’t believe anyone in my situation, at my stage, can have been truly accepting of it. 
I yearn for a way back to my former life. 
Lying alone night after night in a hospital bed is not how I wanted it to be. 

A response from my mum in law. I’m blessed to have her.

Dear Russ I so respect you for telling us how you feel. I guess you will have some dark days but hopefully more days that will be full of optimism. I am sure you will never be regarded as a burden. The fact that you are alive has brought great joy to Danielle, and all the family and friends. When your accident happened, Danielle rang me and asked if I could meet her in Toulon the next day and also could I ring the hospital for information on your condition. I rang Sainte Annes but you were having an operation at the time so I wasn’t able to glean much information. Thanks to a wonderful friend, Liza, who picked me up at 5am and drove me to City Airport,London, I was able to fly to Toulon with Dani. We talked a lot on the flight and she told me that she had had misgivings about you going on the cycle trip and I told her that for quite a while I had had a nagging concern about you as a family. Very strange but I do believe in premonitions although one rarely acts on them. We neither of us envisaged the extent of your injuries and had fully expected you to be awake. Of course the reality was quite shocking. I am telling you this as when the Doctor told us you may not live, Dani turned to me and said she didn’t want the girls growing up without their father. There were also times when Dani was advised that you might have suffered brain damage. That is quite clearly not the case! So, what I am trying to say is that Dani and the girls and all of us are rejoicing that you are with us. Each day will be a day closer to you returning home and, knowing you, you will be speeding up your prescribed recovery! I never put this on the blog but when Helen came to visit in Toulon, she said ” If that bugger thinks he can bloody well wriggle out of eye testing, he has another think coming” . It was just so human and funny at the time when everything felt so fragile. Well, dear Russ,hoping today brings with it lots of friends and precious family. We are, as ever, thinking of you with love. Jenni and Paul xxxx PS Did Dan give you the Montrachet? X Paul,s reclaimed iPad

2009. I thought this might be of interest.

The Yukon 1000

By Russ Dawkins

The Yukon 1000 mile canoe/ kayak race? Sounded fairly extreme! Was it possible to paddle that far in a kayak, at speed? The organiser, Peter Coates (eccentric professor/ irrepressible Englishman type) said no, it wasn’t, but he thought he’d better let kayaks enter to prove it either way. He was half sure they’d either not make it or at very best trail the eight man ‘voyager’ canoes, and even the tandem canoes by some margin.

It kicked off at 11am Monday 20th July in Whitehorse, the 22,000 people capital city of the Yukon. We’d gotten there (myself, Russ Dawkins and my 5 times only training partner Rob Colliver) 6 days earlier to ‘prep the boat’, 6 days of interminable tinkering with the boat, packing it/ unpacking it, strings attaching everything to every other thing in case we dropped stuff overboard etc.  I’d  met Rob after he’d advertised in the press for a suitable partner for this race. I went to Hayling Island for an interview, with my CV of previous accomplishments.

 3 weeks later Rob called to say I’d got the job. 

We had a race plan, routines, you name it, committed to paper and memory. Did the race plan pan out, did the routines work? Well yes, for the first 3 days, as we fell steadily behind the first 4/5 boats. Then, having abandoned our routines, we got a lot faster!

The river is huge. A few hours in you hit Lake Laberge, 30 miles of non flowing water, and a lake so wide you couldn’t see both sides… I’d never paddled the Yukon before (this was Rob’s 4th visit). The rules allowed big, stable sea kayaks only, no skinny boats (way too much expedition/ compulsory kit to carry, including 88lbs of food per pair, tents, bear proof barrels, cooking facilities etc etc). The boat without us in it must have weighed at least 150kg, add to that us, and you’ve got approximately 320kg, so not exactly a Devizes Westminster K2 racer weighing 20lb (my previous interpretation of an endurance kayak race… that 125 mile18 hour race  now seems like a sprint).

True to the forecast, post starters whistle, the 8 man boat sped off, but chased by 2 of the other sea kayaks, who sat on its wash, disappearing into the distance… by the lake they were gone, several miles ahead of us. Our slow, steady strategy suddenly seemed flawed.
The lake demonstrated the need for the sea kayak rule, big waves, strong winds, boat slewing sideways, half successful wave surfing. I pretty much thought, at this point (only half a day in) that victory for us was a dream.

The rules stated that each team had to stop for 6 hours every night. This, and tracking of teams was monitored by compulsory SPOT transmitters. At what time you stopped however was more flexible, so you could stop and camp late, passing teams ahead of you who’d stopped earlier. Days 1, 2 and 3 passed. The voyager 8 man had slipped to 3rd, outrun by the (surprise?) leaders, 2 tandem kayaks. We were in 4/5th, trading places with a canoe pair.

It became apparent that to be competitive in this race, stopping to get out to stretch your legs was not an option. On 3 of our days we didn’t get out at all, the other days once only (a poo, (synchronised both paddlers!) – the only stuff we left in the wilderness, this being a ‘no trace’ race, and the other unscheduled stop, to change GPS batteries, where upon I sunk in river mud up to my knees, almost losing my only pair of shoes – dropping a place in the process).

It also became apparent that of our 6 hour stop, a maximum of 3.5 hours of that was sleep time (boat on shore, tie up, mosquito jackets on, tents up, water purification, wet kit off, hand care, foot care, cooking, bear spray at the ready, traces of food removed from boat into bear proof containers, hatches all covered and secured, and all in reverse in the morning…)


 The saving grace was the continuous daylight – its one hell of a long way north in this race, even passing into the Arctic Circle. Now we were pretty lucky with the weather, only having to contend with our tents blowing away once, and almost into the river, and 2 days of smoke from forest fires raging not so far away, but we were kitted for sub zero nights and 30° days. Travelling light in this race is not only not allowed, but not an option.

So, anyway, come the morning of day 4, we arrive at Dawson City (once home to a slum camp of the 100,000 Klondike Gold Rush prospectors 100 years ago, and now a handful of wooden facade pretend- for- tourists saloons) 460 miles in and from here on we’ve paddled further that the Yukon 460, the previous ‘longest canoe race in the world’, and not even half way, and 2 hours (20 miles) behind the leaders, but in 3rd place. Deplete of energy, I’m wasted and can barely lift the paddle.

Don’t ask me why, but then everything changes. We got faster, slicker technically better, wasting less time. In 18 hours of paddling we take 1hr 50 mins out of the 2 leaders. As they are setting up camp we pass them, and realise that there’s got to be less than 10 minutes in it. Their expressions said it all; amazement they’d been caught. Now we’re well into the Yukon flats, a maze of channels going in every conceivable direction.

Morning of day 5, we jump into our boat, after the compulsory 6 hours of non paddling, 400m ahead of 2 boats moving very fast. By this time we’re really on fire and after 64 hours of paddling a 3 hour sprint chase ensues, including me jumping out of the boat and dragging the boat across 2 very shallow stretches at a run, chased by the others ,  more appropriate in a 1 hour race than a 1000 miler. For 180 minutes we paddled at 10-12 mph, awesome in that type of boat. They caught us though, and then after 750 miles we rafted up as 3, 3 BRITISH, sea kayaks all together, swapping food (and singing Happy Birthday to Darren from Team 4).

Three however soon became two, as Darren went right at a route choice and we 50 metres behind, opted left, and believe me, in this river, if Darren’s Team 4 had wanted to paddle against the flow to rejoin us, it would have taken enough time for us to be gone.

So then phase 3 of this race began. Were Team 4 ahead of us, having taken a better route, or behind? For the remaining 14 hours of that day and the 7 the next we hammered it, Rob navigating from the back of the boat with GPS, me setting the stroke rate and looking for the flow, continually calling left and right.

Finally out of the maze of ‘flats’ we entered an 18 mile glass smooth gorge. Two hours later the Alaskan Pipeway Bridge loomed up bridging the gorge. This being only the 2nd bridge in 1000 miles, we had been expecting it and knew it was the Finish Line. Did we sprint now or agree on a joint first place with my 2 times DW partner Henry Hendron and his twin brother, Richard, who’d say on our ‘wash’ for 2 days ( like slip streaming on a bike ). As fellow Richmond Canoe Club paddlers, we figured joint first would be ok, crossing the line together.

Six days and 2 hours and 11 minutes, . One and a half days quicker than it was felt feasible to paddle this far and,  with Darren and Earl from Wokingham CC 4 hours behind in 3rd, all the podium places fell not only to Sea Kayaks, but to British ones too.

We were pretty pleased about that.

Russ

I then slept for 18 hours without stirring, waking up with the fullest bladder imaginable. 

I walked, doubled over, to the loo down the corridor, for the most wonderful ( but longest – 2.5 minutes)  pee of my life.

God I miss being at home.  

The thought of not being there for many more months is at the moment almost unbearable. 
Whilst the days are tolerable, the time between my friends leaving and me sleeping is my opportunity to go either way with my vision of the near and longer future. 
I wish for a turning back of the clock, never having organised that bike trip. Dani today said that for some reason she had a vision of something going wrong. 
She and my girls have been absolutely rock solid in their support for me since that fateful day, despite the heavy impact on their lives. 
I so hope they’re happy still with me as a burden. For how long can they maintain their regular visits to see me before they perhaps, understandably, want to do other things?
These are dark thoughts I know but this diary is about how life is now, not just an attempt to spout optimism on a daily basis. 
I don’t believe anyone in my situation, at my stage, can have been truly accepting of it. 
I yearn for a way back to my former life. 
Lying alone night after night in a hospital bed is not how I wanted it to be. 

Probably got 5 hours in the chair today, easily a record for me. 

Got my brother, Stu, accredited with pushing me (!) then he did.. To Starbucks. 
12 of us eventually gathered, taking over the pavement. 
Then later myself, Dani and the girls actually went out to dinner, to a local Turkish restaurant. Great food , friendly to the wheelchair guy etc. 
Good day, thanks to everyone mentioned plus Joanne, Mandy and Ben too, for being there for me. 
Love ya all.