Yearly Archives: 2013

Update on me…

Its a rainy day in London. Hope all you Reading Festival types aren’t soaked.

 My throat just has a plaster on it now, so Think my voice is the same as before. I get switched to a different room in the hospital on Tuesday, and can wear my own boxers and shirt from here on, as there are no wires sticking into me.
 The thing that makes me stand up  in the photo is called a Tilt Table and stimulates my body to the natural effects of gravity, as its deprived of it when I’m lying down. So it’s supposed to help my legs and internal organs get into their correct place. 
  I’m sleeping loads better, have a sit down shower on the commode as part of a ‘routine’ daily now too. I can wash everything except my back, feet and bum. The occupational therapist gets the bonus by having the pleasure of doing the latter.
 I can talk on the phone pretty well, have much better use of my arms than I did too. 2 weeks ago I could barely hold my iPhone, def not a book, was very likely to drop a drink whilst placing it back on my trolley too. In the crash I severely damaged my right side, breaking all my ribs, so drastically lost all power on my right side. The left was a lot better but , after weeks in a coma etc, far weaker than before the crash. The arms are now both stronger, and the right is catching up with the left, I’m relieved to say. I’m still bloody thin compared to my former self but give me a few months and something resembling my old self, at least from the waist up, should re emerge.
 Dani’s had people in to look at modifying our house majorly to help me slot easily back in, which will help me loads. I know my brother, Stuart, and my mate Andrew are both checking out the car situation too which looks fairly straightforward..? 
Once at Stoke Mandeville rehab is the focus, both trying to get my legs to fire up a bit but also accepting and learning about life in a wheelchair. I’ll be released from there from time to time to get me used to home life, and obv I can’t wait for that! I do miss my house and normal surroundings.
 I’m pretty sure I’ll be out in the chair along the river later, breathing some non hospital aircon air, instead savouring london’s multiple odours. Last time out I smelt petrol, chips and cannabis. London!
 So on the whole things are pretty good and definitely going in the right direction. The doctors have offered my counselling and psychological therapy. I declined, as I’m not a pussy. If I think negative thoughts I quickly think about something better. That’s not ‘bottling it up’ its just a common sense strategy, right? Anyway it’s worked so far! 
 Amazed by how many people are reading this blog, a lot of whom I barely know, or don’t know at all. I’d like to thank every one of you for taking an interest. What happened to me could happen to any of you, so I suppose it’s an insight into my new world. Lets hope you all just read about it and don’t ever find yourself in my situation.
 Love, Russ

Hairwash!

Hi guys, sorry for the delay in posting this, it was taken a few days ago pre Russ being able to take a shower!

Russ – minus tracheotomy and minus nasal feed tube (yay!!!!) – getting his hair washed by Amber Bamber.

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They knew I was coming at LBH…

…….cos they’ve installed these everywhere!!!

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Normality. But hard on occasions.

They’re trying to get me to learn stuff that will enable me to survive outside hospital.
With that in mind I had my first SHOWER in 10 weeks this morning.
I washed my own hair and even my own, er, well you know
I was sitting on a wheelchair comode at the time but hey, it was a step in the right direction.

I’ve done some resistance training with rubber bands and also been on a tilt table that you’re strapped into and made to stand up. I go to about 55• then lose blood pressure so they take me off it for a bit and then repeat

You take standing up for granted until you can’t, take it from me.

I had quite a few surprise visitors today, plus Quentin, who was there at my crash and for an hour had to ignore my pleas to be turned on to my back. He said I was desperately struggling to breathe whilst face down in the road, but he knew that moving me might make serious into dead. I want to thank Q for his strength of character during that hour, a feat not everyone could achieve by any means.
I’ve not seen him since the crash , so was pleased to hear him say I looked a lot better than the last time he saw me.

I try really hard not to relive the crash in terms of having been avoidable or just bloody bad timing/ luck, but it’s hard not to.
I’m sort of brought back to earth when I think of the number of times I could have been killed over the last 46 years, whether on skis, in a boat, or on a bike or after drinking.  Dani says that really it’s a miracle this didn’t happen years ago , since I’ve always been a risk taker. So really I’m lucky to have had what I had, aren’t I ?

I’ll be on a sitting down disabled ski bike- look on YouTube – as soon as I can, and a hand powered bike, so plenty of chances to kill myself yet.

Don’t worry about me too much, there are so many people worse off than me, with little hope of rescue. I don’t have to worry about people being there for me it seems so far, so I realise how fortunate I am.

Russ x

Diary post.

Thanks Lissy for posting the pics.
More interesting than my musings, I’m sure.

I would like tho to say thank you to an old friend, Phil Keith Roach for his gift but more for what he said in his card to me.
Thanks Phil.

My brothers have been. And gone. Great to see them. I worked out its the first time since 1993 that its just been the 3 of us in the same room talking bollocks. . We def need to do it more often, the chemistry is great ( even in the circumstances. )

Loved all the books and gifts I’ve received. Gotta try to find some time to actually start reading one now. How do I choose which ? They’re all good!

Ok it’s late now so should sign off. Dani and girls safely back in Portugal. Lucky things.
I’ll get on with getting stronger and gaining weight, as I’m the same size now as when I was 14.
For me, not what I wanted!

Had a massage earlier. God, it helped release my shoulders. Another one tomorrow should sort my tension out significantly.

On that optimistic note, goodnight to all those reading this.

Russ
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