Christ I am now so hacked off with this situation. It’s an interminable waiting game for my bowel tract to unblock. If it doesn’t then it’s surgery again.
Me and this hospital have a long association.
None of it is positive.
It was the place I was flown to from Toulon in 2013. It’s where I was first put in a wheelchair.
I was In intensive care back then and my life had changed for ever In every way.
I get that painful flashback again and again. Being here is like being trapped in a nightmare.
I wouldn’t be surprised if today is the anniversary of my first ever trip outside in a wheelchair.
I did exactly that today and it was a full on PTSD type mental experience.
I so want it to be over.
This place sucks the life out of me, it really does.