Russ

  • So I’ve had my lil pet for almost a week now. She’s a pretty lady budgie, white with blue breast feathers and some yellow here and there and I’ve have called her Fanny.

    She and I are bonding slowly, but you ca […]

  • Russ wrote a new post, F it. 16 hours, 26 minutes ago

    Now my wheel won’t come off so the whole chair has been taken away to a workshop. They gave me the world’s most basic replacement chair which makes it impossible to go out now.

    Blimey, if this had happened a f […]

  • Russ wrote a new post, Tuesday. 1 day, 14 hours ago

    So I’m en route to visit my psychiatrist, when two of the 3 struts to my left wheelchair rim snap. There follows a long and slow trip home with a constant clanking and creaking, and risk of the chair collapsing a […]

  • Russ wrote a new post, Monday 2 days, 9 hours ago

    My brother, Stu, sent me this picture of him  

    He’s like a cross between Indiana Jones and something off Lord of The Rings.

    My lung hadn’t changed btw, and he recommended inhalers to help my voice and brea […]

  • Russ wrote a new post, Sunday 3 days, 8 hours ago

    I didn’t realise I hadn’t written anything for a week until a lovely  friend texted me to ask what the score was

    I think that when I’m down it can manifest in apathy, including ‘ bothering ‘ to write anything h […]

  • Russ commented on the post, Sunday. 1 week, 1 day ago

    I do think it proves your animal ‘ obsession ‘ (?) that you do put the welfare of say a hamster before my own efforts to have ‘ a reason to live ‘.
    Just an observation. X

  • Russ commented on the post, Sunday. 1 week, 1 day ago

    Ooohhh Cherie… that goes to show how mistaken a person can be. As a child I spent so many hours looking after ( wild ) animals that i’d find injured or ( in my opinion ) lost, whether they be birds ( mostly ) tadpoles and frogs, bats,crickets or rodents. I had gerbils for years ( my dad wouldn’t have allowed anything larger so it wasn’t even…[Read more]

  • Russ wrote a new post, Sunday. 1 week, 3 days ago

    I took the proactive step of talking to professionally qualified people about how I was feeling, and the thoughts I was having. Even whilst doing it I was thinking ‘ this is pretty pointless because it’s not goi […]

    • I hope your lung scan will show it’s nothing un to ward Russ.

      I’m also having a lung scan on Wednesday!

      I will be in touch with you soon.
      Love you
      Aunty Wendy and John xx

    • Ooohhh Cherie… that goes to show how mistaken a person can be. As a child I spent so many hours looking after ( wild ) animals that i’d find injured or ( in my opinion ) lost, whether they be birds ( mostly ) tadpoles and frogs, bats,crickets or rodents. I had gerbils for years ( my dad wouldn’t have allowed anything larger so it wasn’t even up for discussion ). In recent pre injury years I rescued a bat from a fireplace , and probably a hundred frogs from roads in Portugal, and was the only one in my one time family that would clean the fish tank that we had, which I did with pleasure. I don’t really have a connection with dogs, and cats aren’t of interest to me either.

      • Well you certainly did keep that quiet!
        In over 5 years I’ve never heard you say anything about being an animal fan…. although maybe that’s why you like me- I’m a bit of an animal. No need to speculate which bit! 🦄

        • I do think it proves your animal ‘ obsession ‘ (?) that you do put the welfare of say a hamster before my own efforts to have ‘ a reason to live ‘.
          Just an observation. X

  • Ahhh Margarita- you’re like my Fairy Grandmother
    What I need is a surgeon who understands structural engineering and applies it to the human body.
    You wouldn’t think that that was too unreasonable a thing would you, but it does seem to be the case so far that it’s too much to ask for…

  • Dani I don’t recall you? That bit is true. I may have been ‘ well known for all the wrong reasons…?!’
    What’s incredible is that people like yourself have the compassion to say something lovely to a virtual stranger though.
    I thank you sincerely x

  • It’s true Mark, invariably I bounce back of course, these days at least. I’m being tested at the moment for sure…!

  • As I’m fairly sure that I’m breaking internally again ( too many times lugging my Paralysed bits around beds/ chairs etc ) so my spasms have returned with a vengeance, and so my thoughts turn to hopelessness and […]

    • Russ replied 2 weeks ago

      It’s true Mark, invariably I bounce back of course, these days at least. I’m being tested at the moment for sure…!

    • Russ replied 2 weeks ago

      Dani I don’t recall you? That bit is true. I may have been ‘ well known for all the wrong reasons…?!’
      What’s incredible is that people like yourself have the compassion to say something lovely to a virtual stranger though.
      I thank you sincerely x

    • Russ,I wish I could do something to help you. You have helped me many times when I have been feeling down and haven’t even wanted to be here. I do care about you. Love Margaret x x

      • Ahhh Margarita- you’re like my Fairy Grandmother
        What I need is a surgeon who understands structural engineering and applies it to the human body.
        You wouldn’t think that that was too unreasonable a thing would you, but it does seem to be the case so far that it’s too much to ask for…

    • Well I tried to ask for some small sense of reason through your in laws stating that if they were really interested in the happiness of your daughters they would realize contact with their father should be a given. I feared the psychological effects of your accident on them. Now I fear the psychological effects of being isolated from their father. Time will reveal itself but that is no comfort I know. Don’t think they don’t think about you. They definitely do. They just don’t have the courage or understanding yet to process. This is very complicated and it’s hard. It would take great courage for them to respond now and they clearly don’t have that level of maturity yet or to think independently from the influences around them. You can only control what you can directly influence Russ. Keep reaching out. Don’t give up. Keep doing the right thing. Someone has to.

  • Russ wrote a new post, Mmmmmmmm 2 weeks, 1 day ago

    So after a month of doing transfers from wheelchair to bed and vice versa, acting on advice from the surgeon, I do feel that my new fixation isn’t straight any more. Once again my left hip bone is higher than my r […]

  • Russ commented on the post, Monday 2 weeks, 3 days ago

    Sky – kinda back on those already ! Or i’d go blimmin mad! X

  • Russ commented on the post, Wednesday. 2 weeks, 3 days ago

    Shes destined to hit the big time – for certain!

  • Will do honey bun. X

  • Russ commented on the post, Keeping on. 2 weeks, 3 days ago

    Go Vee! Yes – I only HEARD it, and it was excruciating !

  • We saw a play on Saturday  night, in another hospital escape – A Kind of Alaska – ‘Cast includes Keith Allen( thats Lily Allen’s Dad) , Lee Evans ( funny comedian type ) Tamsin Greig ( actress well known) , Meera […]

  • Having had 24 hours of ‘ mental turmoil ‘, distraction yet again proved to be the best strategy, so I got myself to Shepherds Bush to see a band called Superorganism that I discovered 6 months ago and booked tic […]

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