So it seems that treating my internal double infection has made no difference to the infernal spasming that I get.
Today, it has been going on all day. At the moment my right foot is kicking every single second
As it always gets worse at night, I can hardly bloody wait for nightfall. I now dread going to bed every night. I remember when bedtime was a good thing.
To say that it drives me to bloody distraction would be an understatement. Nothing that I do makes any positive difference. Not understanding how my f’d up body works is highly dissatisfying. Pre injury I was totally tuned in to it. Yes it would break down now and again and I’d know the work around, which helped me a lot. The contrast now couldn’t be greater -as often as not I have no idea at all why things happen, and therefore can’t fix it.
Tonight im going to try having a lot to drink.