For about the last 9 days, I’ve had a break from almost continuous spasms. They seemed to stop after I’d taken different antibiotics ( from my usual ones ) for the UTI I had at the time. When the spasming stopped I also began to sleep properly – for the first time in many months. Coincident with this was an awareness that I was just not ‘down’ all of the time, either. Things didn’t seem to be bothering me too much, I seemed just to be more content (which was both mystifying and a surprise).
Today, almost out of the blue, I started to feel down again, I became aware that I was missing doing normal things, and just couldn’t listen to people talking about doing things that involved being able to walk ( most things then, really ).
An hour or so later I realised from the cloudiness and sediment in my urine that I had what appears to be another UTI.
It would seem to be a logical conclusion that my depression is most certainly influenced, or even brought about, by the level of internal infection/ infestation that I have at any one time.
I’ve resumed taking the same antibiotic as last time, and will see what happens to my infection and mindset.