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  • So I’ve had my lil pet for almost a week now. She’s a pretty lady budgie, white with blue breast feathers and some yellow here and there and I’ve have called her Fanny.

    She and I are bonding slowly, but you ca […]

  • Russ wrote a new post, F it. 12 hours, 8 minutes ago

    Now my wheel won’t come off so the whole chair has been taken away to a workshop. They gave me the world’s most basic replacement chair which makes it impossible to go out now.

    Blimey, if this had happened a f […]

  • Russ wrote a new post, Tuesday. 1 day, 10 hours ago

    So I’m en route to visit my psychiatrist, when two of the 3 struts to my left wheelchair rim snap. There follows a long and slow trip home with a constant clanking and creaking, and risk of the chair collapsing a […]

  • Russ wrote a new post, Monday 2 days, 5 hours ago

    My brother, Stu, sent me this picture of him  

    He’s like a cross between Indiana Jones and something off Lord of The Rings.

    My lung hadn’t changed btw, and he recommended inhalers to help my voice and brea […]

  • Russ wrote a new post, Sunday 3 days, 4 hours ago

    I didn’t realise I hadn’t written anything for a week until a lovely  friend texted me to ask what the score was

    I think that when I’m down it can manifest in apathy, including ‘ bothering ‘ to write anything h […]

  • Russ wrote a new post, Sunday. 1 week, 3 days ago

    I took the proactive step of talking to professionally qualified people about how I was feeling, and the thoughts I was having. Even whilst doing it I was thinking ‘ this is pretty pointless because it’s not goi […]

    • I hope your lung scan will show it’s nothing un to ward Russ.

      I’m also having a lung scan on Wednesday!

      I will be in touch with you soon.
      Love you
      Aunty Wendy and John xx

    • Ooohhh Cherie… that goes to show how mistaken a person can be. As a child I spent so many hours looking after ( wild ) animals that i’d find injured or ( in my opinion ) lost, whether they be birds ( mostly ) tadpoles and frogs, bats,crickets or rodents. I had gerbils for years ( my dad wouldn’t have allowed anything larger so it wasn’t even up for discussion ). In recent pre injury years I rescued a bat from a fireplace , and probably a hundred frogs from roads in Portugal, and was the only one in my one time family that would clean the fish tank that we had, which I did with pleasure. I don’t really have a connection with dogs, and cats aren’t of interest to me either.

      • Well you certainly did keep that quiet!
        In over 5 years I’ve never heard you say anything about being an animal fan…. although maybe that’s why you like me- I’m a bit of an animal. No need to speculate which bit! 🦄

        • I do think it proves your animal ‘ obsession ‘ (?) that you do put the welfare of say a hamster before my own efforts to have ‘ a reason to live ‘.
          Just an observation. X

  • As I’m fairly sure that I’m breaking internally again ( too many times lugging my Paralysed bits around beds/ chairs etc ) so my spasms have returned with a vengeance, and so my thoughts turn to hopelessness and […]

    • Russ replied 2 weeks ago

      It’s true Mark, invariably I bounce back of course, these days at least. I’m being tested at the moment for sure…!

    • Russ replied 2 weeks ago

      Dani I don’t recall you? That bit is true. I may have been ‘ well known for all the wrong reasons…?!’
      What’s incredible is that people like yourself have the compassion to say something lovely to a virtual stranger though.
      I thank you sincerely x

    • Russ,I wish I could do something to help you. You have helped me many times when I have been feeling down and haven’t even wanted to be here. I do care about you. Love Margaret x x

      • Ahhh Margarita- you’re like my Fairy Grandmother
        What I need is a surgeon who understands structural engineering and applies it to the human body.
        You wouldn’t think that that was too unreasonable a thing would you, but it does seem to be the case so far that it’s too much to ask for…

    • Well I tried to ask for some small sense of reason through your in laws stating that if they were really interested in the happiness of your daughters they would realize contact with their father should be a given. I feared the psychological effects of your accident on them. Now I fear the psychological effects of being isolated from their father. Time will reveal itself but that is no comfort I know. Don’t think they don’t think about you. They definitely do. They just don’t have the courage or understanding yet to process. This is very complicated and it’s hard. It would take great courage for them to respond now and they clearly don’t have that level of maturity yet or to think independently from the influences around them. You can only control what you can directly influence Russ. Keep reaching out. Don’t give up. Keep doing the right thing. Someone has to.

  • Russ wrote a new post, Mmmmmmmm 2 weeks, 1 day ago

    So after a month of doing transfers from wheelchair to bed and vice versa, acting on advice from the surgeon, I do feel that my new fixation isn’t straight any more. Once again my left hip bone is higher than my r […]

  • We saw a play on Saturday  night, in another hospital escape – A Kind of Alaska – ‘Cast includes Keith Allen( thats Lily Allen’s Dad) , Lee Evans ( funny comedian type ) Tamsin Greig ( actress well known) , Meera […]

  • Having had 24 hours of ‘ mental turmoil ‘, distraction yet again proved to be the best strategy, so I got myself to Shepherds Bush to see a band called Superorganism that I discovered 6 months ago and booked tic […]

  • Russ wrote a new post, Wednesday. 3 weeks ago

    A trader made me a wire figure today. He said it was me.

    I took it and held it and looked at it, and found myself bending the standing wire man into a different shape that represented me. 

  • Now there is a strategy for spasm reduction- Botox injections to my hamstrings to reduce the tension in them that stops me in many ways currently.  The Botox won’t make things suddenly easy ( I bloody wish ) bu […]

  • Russ wrote a new post, Monday 3 weeks, 2 days ago

    From one hospital to another then… I’m at Hammersmith Hospital having my latest dermatologist check. No doubt they’ll be burning off more of me shortly, leaving me with even less of the original me.
    Before lon […]

    • Russ you know how much I have grown to love you. I understand that you don’t like cats but didn’t it occur to you that the elderly lady trying to talk to you or any one that would listen is probably very lonely. She might not have spoken to anyone all the week and probably lives on her own. Love to you as always. Margaret x x x

      • Yes Margie, I appreciate that. But I’d heard her tell at least 8 other people about her cat already in the previous 20 minutes, so if we extrapolate that I’d be one of about 72 people that she might talk to that day about her cat… so I don’t feel at all bad about not engaging in a meaningful way on the topic. And I’d just be lying if I pretended to be interested, which is a sin….. and I’m doing my best to be a good person… 🙂

    • Sky – kinda back on those already ! Or i’d go blimmin mad! X

  • Conversation with staff nurse just now.


    I’ll be going out for a bit et etc etc

    Have you told the other nurses ?

    No. Just you.

    Ok Rick I’ll tell them.

    Thanks . My name is Russ, btw, not Rick […]

  • Russ wrote a new post, ???? 1 month ago

    I had to laugh…

    when i saw these 3 ladies taking selfies….??????!

    I mean… why????

  • Russ wrote a new post, No idea… 1 month ago

    I do continue to be amazed by the ineffective nature of the way that some people ‘ work ‘

    As I subscribe to the Just Get on With It school of thinking, I really don’t admire people who do the oppos […]

  • I sent this letter to you months ago but I am not sure if you received it. it is in concern about your late relative, who has left a sum of $US 13,580,000. He was my client, he died in a car crash alongside with […]

    • Russ replied 1 month ago

      Blimey Tony!
      All that cash and you Walk round looking like a homeless person !
      Shame on you!
      😉 x

    • I have had them before. Only my Family died in a plane crash. I know it is a scam and I am sure someone that is vulnerable will believe it is real. Only thing I can say is You have got to laugh haven’t you. Laughing at things has kept me going over the past 3 years. On the Notice Board outside a Church in Ashford it says “Confessions by Appointment only”. I was thinking if it is anything like trying to get a Doctor’s appointment you could wait weeks to confess. I have a Mrs Browns Boy’s calendar and on one of he months it says that her wheelie bin goes out more than she does. Last year when I was waiting for the Vicar to come and talk about Philip’s funeral I put the calendar away because it said God must love F****ng idiots because he has made enough of them. It still makes me laugh to this day. Hope you are OK and all my love Margaret x x

      • Russ replied 1 month ago

        Never a truer word written !
        God indeed loves a moron… x

    • Don’t forget to give them your Bank Details…. Love Margaret xx

  • Russ wrote a new post, Status 1 month ago

    And I’m still in hospital. Going a little stir crazy. It’s definitely like being in a prison, though an open one. Paralysis is like a prison too of course, an athletic man locked inside a body that doesn’t move. […]

    • I always say I am not going to watch the Apprentice but I usually watch the first episode and then I have to start watching it. I know they are a bunch of idiots but watching them makes me feel that I am quite clever. Love Margaret x x

  • Russ wrote a new post, (no title) 1 month, 1 week ago

    And my heart goes out to my dear friend, Marky, who lost his younger sister yesterday.

    What a lovely guy he is, and I’m sorry I cannot make things better for him.

    • It is awful when you lose someone and nothing makes it any better. You just deal with it as best you can. Love to you Margaret….. Thank you for being there writing your blog and replying back to me when I needed a friend. Loving Philip was easy, losing him was hard…

      • Russ replied 1 month ago

        Nothing ever will, darling.
        Only time will take off the sharp edges.

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