It’s 4 am and I’m thinking, as in my mind is at work, thoughts flying about in different directions.

My girls leave tomorrow, at midday.
That won’t be a good moment for me.

I’m thinking about my life before – lived at full speed – being a dad, husband, a boss at work, having a full on life outside work, all the sports I did ( every day ), a social life that was way too overcommitted, all leading to far too little sleep. But with hindsight how easy life was, compared to now, how it is now with relatively so few things in it, yet so much more of a battle, with far less fulfilment.